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I was so afraid, that it would be over. That it would have been the last time I talked to you, the last time I saw you. That I couldn’t tell you the things I wanted to tell you. That you would be gone and that there would only be memories. Memories of you, of the past, of happy times. Of the things you told me, you taught me, your words, your lessons. I am glad, that you were there for me, that you kept a eye on me. Without you and grandma, I would have given up long ago. You two are the closest people for me, the ones I call family. I could always rely on you two, your advices and words guided me towards myself. When I was struggling, you two showed me the light again. When my parents were fighting and my dad was suffering in silence with depression you were always there for me and provided me a home, a place I where could feel safe. Loosing one of you, even the thought about that fills my eyes with tears.
I made my wish. I wished not for myself, but for you. You got better, you could go home again and we will meet again. We can talk and I can tell you how much you mean to me. When I think about my father, I think about you. Without you there wouldn’t be a me. I look up to you, as I would love to look up to my father. So I sacrifice my wish for you. The best wish I ever made. I love you, always did and I will always remember. Even if your gone one day, your light will guide my path. I love you and I am not ready to loose you, but I will never be ready for that. I will continue to live in your image, to follow your principles, to bring love into this world and to help others. A part of you will always live on in myself and I will always carry the memory of you. I don’t wish for a dream, I wish for time, time that you can have, time that you can enjoy and spend, time you can live.
I know nothing is forever, and that both of you will eventually part. That only memories and words will remain. Your words that carry a message. Memories of things you taught me, of the time we spend together. Of the times you cared for me. Memories of what it means to be a family, what it means to care for others, principles ingrained in myself. Nothing is forever and time the most precious thing we posses. Make the best out of it, enjoy every moment, breathe and accept, that nothing lasts forever.