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What is it, that I wanna tell to the world, to the people, to others, that someone else hasn’t told better than me? What is it, that I wanna share with the world, with all the people out there? What is the message of my heart? What do I wanna achieve in my life, what do I live for?
It was a long road, that brought me here, a long way full of pain, misunderstandings, laughs, joy and tears. A long road, that brought me closer to myself, that showed me, who I really am. A road I would go again and again, because without it, I wouldn’t be the person I am, I wouldn’t be free, I wouldn’t be able to write this words and to share the message of my heart. Without this road, without my scars, I would have never discovered the person I truly am, the person I love and accept as myself. I wanna smile, laugh and cry. I wanna dance, I wanna be happy and share my happiness and emotions with others. This is what I live for, the reason I was born and the reason, why I am still alive. It was never a mental illness, it was a gift all along. That’s the perspective I have chosen and not the one, that was chosen for me.
Emotions connect us all like a invisible bond we all share. Everything we share is born out of them. Without them we are no humans. The world is full of them. Emotions live in art, in music, in our stories and memories, they flow through ourselves, they are part of us all. They let us dance in the rain, laugh, cry and smile.
I wanna say thank you, thank you for being out there, thank you for living, breathing, smiling and laughing. Thank you for being strong and not giving up. Thank you for going on, even if its hard, even if your depressed and stuck in a cycle of negative thoughts, tomorrow the sun will rise anew, a new day will start and a new opportunity to smile will present itself. I know this and this is what I wanna tell, a story I know, because it is my story, a story I lived. Don’t be afraid of your emotions, they are a precious gift, they make you whole. Smile, when you wanna smile, laugh and cry, when you feel like it, there is no shame in it. But promise me this, to never give up, to hold your head high, even when tears are running down your cheeks, to fight against the voices that taunt and hurt you and in return I will promise you, that one day it will get better, that one day you will dance in the sunlight, that you can find yourself one day and live, live as the person you are and not as the person someone else wants you to live as. That one day you can forgive yourself, accept yourself and love yourself. I know this, because this is the road I traveled, a road that I will continue to follow. Where will it lead? I don’t know, but does it really matter? What is important, is that you set off on your own journey to find yourself, to discover your emotions, to find out, who you really are and to change your perspective regarding yourself and your past. Everything else will come naturally, once the journey starts.
Thank you for being here, thank you for your inspiration, thank you for reading and thank you for your smile. Thank you, to everyone who knows me, our memories gave me the strength to start my own journey 11 years ago.
What phrases make you happy to hear from others? My three favorites are “Thank you”, “You did your best”, and “I love you”.
Shoko Makinohara