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He’s late, kinda in a hurry, as it’s happening often in the last couple of months. Down the road he goes, to that old meeting place. That one bar at the southern street. He opens the door, routinly checking his watch, 5 min too late, aight thats allright.
I look arround, my gaze checks the whole interior in seconds. The old familiar n red seats, the small tables, the band in the background, kicking some sweet old school jazz. I spot him at the usual table in the corner, chattin with the waitress. I walk over, nodding to some familar faces on the way. The bar is half empty. I clench my right fist, better get this over quick.
“Sorry for letting u wait” I say. ” It’s all good bra, have a seat” he replies and continious towards the waitress “fetch us two of those, would ya? I know ur taste u’ll love this blood.” He smiles a warm smile towards me. I sit down, still not chill. “Relax it’s all good now. I know why u came, wanted to meet up. What can I say, it’s deeply appriciated.”
The waitress brings the drinks, it’s that sweet gin, the one that is made with cherry blossoms and served on the rocks with lime. “Cheers” I say and the glasses cling together. “Tell me” he says “I wanna hear it from ya! In fact, I wanna hear it from myself.” I take another sip and clear my throat. “Brother, blood u know why I’m here, u know what I did, in fact u are me and I’m u.” “I’m u and u are me” he replies. “I opened that one door, I never wanted to open again. I fucked up big time, I broke my word, got careless and ran, just ran away as fast as I could. Hiding and lying to myself. I’m sorry, I really am. It’s the wrong way, I deeply know it, it was never the right way. No excuses, I’m deeply sorry for what I did to me, to u, to us my brother, my blood.” A tear rolls down my cheek, a tear rolls down his cheek.
“I know u r, otherwise u wouldn’t be here. The question is, what do we learn from this mistake? Making one is human, learing nothing from it is just stupid and we ain’t stupid!” He smiles a warm one and I answer his smile with my own. “I gotta take better care of myself, of ourself. I gotta make sure this never happens again. Benni says nothing happens without a reason and he is right. The reason it happend is that we share this table again. It’s been a long time. I missed u, I really did. U are me and I’m u.” I smile, he smiles and repeats “U r me and I’m u.”
“This shit brought me back to this table. How can I make sure to not cancel the next meeting? I gotta stop running, I gotta love myself, I gotta forgive myself, I gotta end this chapter so we can move on bra. So we can enjoy the future, reach for the stars and carve a path for ourselfs. The meaning of live is live itselfs, to enjoy it. To find meaning in an meaningless existence, to give urself a meaning.” “U, I, we came pretty far, ya know. I always loved u and will ever do so brother. Even if we’re lost and ur late. Remember this, I will always chill at this table, waiting for ya. Lets talk more in the future, aight?” “Aight” I reply. “Then there is only one thing left to do. Cheers my brother, to the future!” “Cheers my brother, to the future!” The glasses cling together. “Never again” I say “will I bleed. This is my vow and oath!” “Never again will I bleed. This is my vow and oath!”
“To our future, whatever it may bring, I’m not alone. I got myself, I got u, my inner child, my brother, my blood, my deamon.” He smiles, I smile. “Cheers! Drink up! We got alot to talk bout.” “Yeah, hey miss, would u bring us two more of those? We got alot to talk bout!” The seats are comfortable, the drinks are good and the music is relaxing. The waitress is sweet and the talk deep. So they sit there, two sides of one soul, YIN and YANG, enjoying the companie.
“Lets talk bar, lets talk bra bra. I’m not dissapointed, u will learn from ur mistakes, u’ll always do. Keep smiling, follow ur way, live and ur dreams will come true!”