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While I’m starring into the mirror, something feels off. It is hard to look in my own eyes and so I start to avoid my own glance. It feels like I’m trapped in this place, not by a solid door or guards, but by my own will. The feeling gnaws on myself and the walls of the prison just grow higher. How can I feel alone, when I know, that I got family and friends? Sometimes it just feels like there are worlds between us. Something is missing, I cant just put your finger on it, but something is not here. I am not here…
With one foot in the past and one in the present I cling to my memories. I wish I could live in my memories, I wish I could change them, but I can’t. Nobody can change the past. The only thing that you can change, is the perspective your choose while your looking back. Afraid of the future I dream in awe about my potential, the person I could be, the things that I could do. To escape the prison I flee into other worlds, always hoping for a reaction of others, as a proof, that I exist.
Existing to exist,
living to exist,
Existing to live,
Living to live.
To exist I just need food, water and a place to sleep. To live I need love, happiness and a purpose. Without love and a purpose I can not live, only exist. Out of pain and disappointment I started to close my heart to the world and escape. Years later I realized, that a closed heart is not able to receive love and I’m still searching for a purpose.
I’m good at giving advice to others, I’m equally bad at following my own advice to others myself. I’m searching for someone who offers me advice the way I give it to others. Who could that be?
In the silence of the night I whisper:
“Who wants to escape this world with me?
Who wants to dream a familiar dream?
Are you out there? Somewhere?
Or do you just exist in my head?
A longing for a dream and not reality?
A vision of a ideal not fit for reality?
A longing that can never be fulfilled?
A hunger that can never be satiated?”
Time to wake up dreamer and open your eyes. Find yourself and create the Utopia your always dreamed off in this world. Find the answers for your questions and find out if a ideal can exist in this world. Don’t be afraid, there is no reason to be.
Who will come to help me, at the bridge of worlds? Who will come to help you? Who will came to save you and me?